Last year I had an injury that I struggled with for almost ten months. It was frustrating, uncomfortable and time consuming. I tried many things to heal my muscles and finally had great success in physical therapy. As a lover of fitness and athlete in my younger years, it was hard to adapt to moving in a different way. Therapy was a very humbling experience. I was used to doing sprints, burpees, kettle bell swings, and a variety of other exercises that required big, fast moves, yet I was told to pull back and try a new way. It was during this season of life that God started speaking to me “Be Still”.
In the old testament, Psalm 46:10 says “Be still and know I am God.” I dont know about you, but with all the demands of everyday life and in our fast paced world the phrase “BE STILL” makes me a little uncomfortable. I mean it sounds lovely, but who has time to be still, and what does it actually mean? While I like yoga, I much prefer running, burpees, timing myself with my workouts, etc…So, I decided I should try to understand this a little further, actually hoping it didnt mean to actually sit down and be quiet. In my research I found the Hebrew definition which is to stop striving, to let go, surrender. Ok not what I had hoped to hear.
You see, this injury occurred just as I launched Motivated by More, a fitness ministry I felt God nudged me to launch. I was quite confused as to why God would call me to start a personal training and fitness business-ministry and yet I was not able to exercise. It was hard. Did I mention earlier how humbling therapy was? UGH. This whole process was humbling. I wanted to move like I was used to moving. Instead I would go to an hour of physical therapy 2-3 times/week and do small little exercises that were so hard I left feeling like jello, dripping with sweat. I longed to exercise again pain free, so fought my desire to be good while at therapy and do what I wanted in my classes. I decided it was time to listen to God (and my physical therapist) and I spent much of the fall being still. In those few months I learned so much. I began to learn to rest in God, seek Him more, and depend on Him to be my strength.
As I was leaving the YMCA today I was thinking of all the different styles of exercises we did in class, the variety of fitness levels and the modifications that were used. I admit I still have to “check myself” on occasion as my competitive nature kicks in, and realize I am working out to get stronger and healthier, physically and spiritually. Through my trail I have found a new appreciation for exercise and my body.
Then I started thinking about my experience physical therapy and how it is so similar to our relationship with God. When I started therapy I wanted them to show me a solution to my problem. I got frustrated that it took a lot longer to get better because I wanted a quick fix. A solution NOW. A program that said if you do this & that you will be all better. It did not work like that. I had to be intentional with my movement and make some changes. Funny how our relationship with God is so similar. We want & desire to be closer to Him. Most of us would prefer to read a bible study or a 2-minute daily devotion, like a program, verses reading the bible because, well its hard and a little uncomfortable.
The work to get healthy is hard sometimes. It sometimes requires us to BE STILL – quit striving & let go. Appreciate what we CAN DO and be okay with it. There is no quick fix with either. We must be intentional with our time, our movement, our heart & minds.
I am grateful to God for a great Physical Therapist (the gals at Athetico are awesome)! I am also grateful that He knew what I needed and made me slow down. I am still working on this, but I can tell you the what I have learned is carrying me through every day! Be Blessed!